You know the kind of pain that u try to hold it in so bad?

Every  moment  u feel like crying but you have to hold it in.

You tilt ur head up, close your eyes, trying to stop the tears from flowing.. but somehow it doesn't work...

I tried so hard to not think n not feel but I can't...

This is so difficult.  I dono how I should move on.. or when can I really move on...