not happy

don feel happy

unable to be happy

seriously  hate it. Hate to attend all this nonsense. Feels like a slap in my face..

Still have to put up a happy face . Act all happy u n mingle with ppl who knows the shit. And still tell me in my face they on my side. Hypocrite. 

 feel so sad. this sadness in me is masked up under a facade. 

fml

is there anyone reading this space? i saw views on my posts and wonderings whos been reading.. leave a comment for me? 

 divine interpretation from all universe all telling me the same thing

my future path opens only when my energy stops revolving around the wound.

healing comes when you stop standing inside the cage voluntarily

i need to stop myself from looping and stop letting it become an identity tt im carrying 

the closure wont come from ppl who caused me the hurt and pain

 隔着一层纱

 going through this phase of life is so difficult for me. when memories revisit , the heart aches.

don even know how to push through this difficult emotional turmoil.

Feeling sad out of no where. 但也不知道该怎么办💁‍♀️

in a much better mental space now..  but somehow already 看透一个人的本质

每个人都会犯错但那不是个借口

一个人的道德底线到底在哪里

当自己在犯错时，有没有真正的想到后果？当踏出那第一步时，有没有想到这个深渊到底有多深？当下的你到底是想得到什么？ 当自己真正的意识到错误的时候，有没有想到带给别人的痛是有多彻底？每一个念头，每一个谎言， 到底有没有真正的感到愧疚？

这个人还值不值得原谅？

 numbs~

 a whirlwind of emotions for this month. but things are getting clearer.

in terms of my boundaries and my values. 

many time it has been crossed and this will be my final line of defense before i  bring it to an end and press the emergency stop button.

enough is enough.

last chance. 

its too mentally and physically tiring. any more chance given it will be jus like a merry go round.

vicious cycle.

too consuming. 

not sure how to put it into words but have you ever felt being engulf in the silence even in the loudest room?

or maybe i should put it this way,  you feel the loneliness and emptiness even when there's someone right next to you.