in a much better mental space now..  but somehow already 看透一个人的本质

每个人都会犯错但那不是个借口

一个人的道德底线到底在哪里

当自己在犯错时，有没有真正的想到后果？当踏出那第一步时，有没有想到这个深渊到底有多深？当下的你到底是想得到什么？ 当自己真正的意识到错误的时候，有没有想到带给别人的痛是有多彻底？每一个念头，每一个谎言， 到底有没有真正的感到愧疚？

这个人还值不值得原谅？

 numbs~

 a whirlwind of emotions for this month. but things are getting clearer.

in terms of my boundaries and my values. 

many time it has been crossed and this will be my final line of defense before i  bring it to an end and press the emergency stop button.

enough is enough.

last chance. 

its too mentally and physically tiring. any more chance given it will be jus like a merry go round.

vicious cycle.

too consuming. 

not sure how to put it into words but have you ever felt being engulf in the silence even in the loudest room?

or maybe i should put it this way,  you feel the loneliness and emptiness even when there's someone right next to you. 

A part of me is dead and it will nv go back to before.

I think the hardest part is how to recover from this kind of pain that you put all your heart n soul into.  It came right back slapping at ur face to wake the fuck up.   

You are not that impt you know. 别把自己当一回事!

Hey! Its so painful u know when the lie keep uncovering itself. Stfu