not sure how to put it into words but have you ever felt being engulf in the silence even in the loudest room?

or maybe i should put it this way,  you feel the loneliness and emptiness even when there's someone right next to you. 

A part of me is dead and it will nv go back to before.

I think the hardest part is how to recover from this kind of pain that you put all your heart n soul into.  It came right back slapping at ur face to wake the fuck up.   

You are not that impt you know. 别把自己当一回事!

Hey! Its so painful u know when the lie keep uncovering itself. Stfu

好累。

有点想放弃。

Wow

I really hate myself now.

And the irony.

The time I first pen down my thoughts after soooooooo long

slap right  back into my face like a wake up call. HEY U MF. WAKE UP

Have u ever  felt ur heart feeling so pain that  even breathing hurts.

I did.

It is so painful til i feel nauseous.